Writing Again

It’s been since college, since I felt motivated and inspired to write for fun. Recently, I’ve been praying for inspiration and wisdom from God’s Word. Truthfully, to regain a love for lyric writing that I once had. But, not only that, through writing, to share with others the things God is teaching me.

Last night, I found myself awake again. My mind filled with images, reflecting on how to explain a spiritual attack to someone. My mind narrowed in on a hazing practice I recalled hearing about in college. When a recruit is placed alone in a dark place and the “hazers” shout, relentlessly at them from the dark. Longing for them to break under the pressure.

Isn’t this exactly what the enemy does to us? When we aren’t on our guard or weak in our faith?  So, here is my doodle of a writing…there is no title as of yet. (I’m open to suggestions.)

How did I get here?

The darkness is overwhelming.

As I sit with my head on my knees and arms wrapped tightly around my ankles, all I can hear are their voices.

Each invisible one carries so much weight and pain. I can’t stand.

Their words tear at every insecurity like talons piercing my spirit and pulling me to the ground. Useless.

Louder. They scream ever louder! Will they ever stop? It’s deafening. Will anyone help me?

A breeze…no…wait…  a Voice.  Did it say “ask”?

Oh please help! I can’t escape them alone! Please?!

“Stand”? I don’t think I can. The pain is too much. The weight is too heavy. Their grip is too strong!

Light? Is that light I see?  Again the Voice in the cool breeze whispers “Stand”.

Ok, here goes.

The weight seems lighter. Maybe I can stand. Slowly.

With each inch I rise, the dark voices seem to fade. The Light grows brighter. The Voice in the breeze grows louder and stronger.

As I reach my tallest stance, I’m engulfed by the fierce Rushing Wind. It is pushing the darkness away with Its marvelous Light. All the while, whispering to my spirit to stand firm and stand tall, and allow Him to battle the darkness.

Standing in the Wind is difficult. It takes focus and endurance and trust.

I could easily fall if I don’t hold on to the Voice within.

I must cling to It with every breath, for It alone holds the freedom from the voices in the dark.


Be blessed!


Reinforcing His Armor

This little blog of prayer is for all my ministry wife friends out there.

As I lay in my bed last night, jolted awake by some random noise outside, my mind focused in on all of you. You beautiful, often battle-worn ladies, my sisters in the fight, as we aide our men in their leading of God’s churches. So I began to pray, to seek God for what He was trying to tell me. Here is what He whispered to my heart.

13 Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. 14 Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints

Ephesians 6:13-18 (NASB)

We all know to put on our armor everyday, and I know our husbands do too. But God was impressing upon me, that as my husband’s helper, I held the responsibility of helping to repair and reinforce his armor. After days on the front lines of a spiritual battle, he will need help. How do we help? Prayer. That may be quite obvious, I know. We all pray for our husbands daily, or at least I hope you do. But do we honestly consider the spiritual battles that rage around him. We are deceiving ourselves if we don’t think they are real. We’re their back-up ladies!

Father, as my husband has armed himself for battle today, I pray that you will strengthen his armor as he heads to the front lines. Strengthen his stance in You, Father. Fasten tightly Your belt of Truth around him as he studies Your word. Guard his heart with Your breastplate of righteousness as he strives to live for You. As my husband laces up shoes of peace, give him Your stability, Your peace amidst the enemy’s fire. Strengthen his traction as he moves forward to spread Your Gospel message. As he takes up his shield of faith, place him in line with Your other leaders on the front lines. Encourage them to link their shields together creating a stronger guard against the flaming arrows of the enemy, thus becoming an immovable force for You. Pushing through the front lines of the enemy together in full faith in You. Tighten upon him, the helmet of Salvation, Father. Do not allow the enemy to invade his mind. Protect him from the discouragement and negativity that abounds in the church and the world. Renew his mind daily to reflect Your own. Father, sharpen his Sword as he lives in Your Word daily. Bestow upon him Your wisdom through the Word, so that he may courageously and confidently combat the workers of the enemy. Finally, grow in him a deeper desire to be a man on his knees. Make his prayer life a most precious time with You! In this, he will be more alert to the schemes of the enemy and more focused and aligned with Your perfect will.

Protect him today, Father. Use him today, Father. In Jesus name, Amen.

This may be nothing new to you, I don’t know. I’m just sharing what God placed on my heart.

This world is a mess, ladies, and our husbands are called to no easy task. The war is raging in churches across our country, and we can no longer sit and observe from the pews. We must stand up. We must pray. We must join them on the front lines of battle and tend their wounds.

Praying for all of you and your men today!


A Call to End the Silence

My heart has been so heavy over the past weeks…maybe months. I no longer have the desire to turn on the daily news. I barely ever want to peek at social media because in the desire to see what my friends and loved ones are up to, I’m bombarded with the craziness that is occurring in our world.

I’ve found myself wishing it would just all go away. (Yes, I know, lovely attitude there…just being real.)

As I sat in prayer this morning, God spoke louder to me something He’s been whispering to me for a while.

stop being silent

Church, we’ve been too silent for too long! What has our silence brought us? Just look around!

  • Churches across the nation are more divided than EVER…and NOT over things that matter.
  • Reaching the lost for Christ has become more difficult because too many “Christians” do not live out what they claim to believe.
  • Sin nature in our country has overtaken our culture partly because Christians have taken their focus off of evangelism & discipleship.

I could continue a nice long list, but that’s not the point.

The point is that we need to WAKE UP! We need to rediscover the urgency of the Gospel! We need to STOP attacking each other over things that don’t matter! We need to STEP UP and PRAY for our leadership (both in the church and the nation) before we open our big mouths to tear them down to others. And, maybe, let’s be a little more Christlike and NOT tear them down anyway, just pray and pray some more.

Christians, we need to UNITE & PRAY like never before. We don’t have time for our petty differences of opinions. There are lost people dying and going to hell at a faster rate than I’ve ever seen. We need to grab onto Christ, bind ourselves to Him and His mission, and GO for what is absolutely the most important ride of our lives!

We can no longer be silent about our faith. We must fulfill the great commission. We must GO! We must TELL! We must LIVE a life fueled by and filled with the LOVE of Christ!

Matthew 28:18-20

Ephesians 4:1-6

1 John 3:11-24

1 John 4:7-21

1 Corinthians 15:1-5

Be blessed & LOUD!



A Little Bit of Worship

My hubby and I have had many conversations recently about worship.  (Of course, over the Christmas break we traveled 1800+ miles, so there was LOTS of time to talk.) Our observation is that the majority of Christ followers just don’t truly know how to worship God anymore.  Is it that we aren’t taught?  Is it that we’ve simply forgotten due to lack of practice?  Where has it gotten lost?

Worship goes beyond singing songs on Sunday morning.  (For those who actually participate in that part of the services.)  Shouldn’t worship be how we live our lives for God?  I love this statement from Baker’s Evangelical Dictionary’s definition of worship:

All true worshipers must worship God in “spirit and in truth.” That is, true worship takes place on the inside, in the heart or spirit of the worshiper (cf. Psalm 45:1 ; 103:1-2 ). Worship pleasing to God must be unfeigned and transparent, offered with a humble and pure heart ( Psalm 24:3-4 ; Isa 66:2).

That doesn’t sound so difficult, does it.  Worship is simply our humble, heart-felt offerings to God.  Worship can happen when we are alone or with our church family.  Worship can happen while scrubbing the bathroom (crank up some praise music and offer Him your heart while doing that chore you despise) and during silent prayer in the middle of church.  Your heart is where it begins! 

When was the last time you were overwhelmed with the presence of God?  I mean that speechless place where no words or songs or sounds you could utter seemed worthy enough for Him.  But also that place when you knew that you were so wrapped in the Holy Spirit that you didn’t need to make a sound, and you simply lifted your heart and hands to the Father to offer Him your purest worship.

Oh, my sisters, that is a place I want to live!!  No, it doesn’t happen every day, but when it does…my heart cries out to my Abba Father, the joy of the Lord fills every inch of my being, and I offer Him the best of what I have to give…as unworthy as that may truly be.

Just offer ALL of yourself to Him.  Humble yourself & let Him lead you.  Pray that He will guide your worship.  Pray that He will free you to worship, if that needs to be your prayer.  And simply worship Him in spirit and truth!

Be blessed!


I Will Be Audacious!

I just sat down on my couch after a blessed, blessed day! Our church hosted the Living Proof Live Simulcast today, & what a WORD God gave to Mrs. Beth!

Leading up to the event, I prayed for God to speak to the women who attended. To move in their heart. To prepare a word just for them. Here’s what I didn’t expect…He prepared a word just for ME!

Backstory: My hubby and I, for years, have prayed that no matter what, we would do what God calls us to do. Whether to go or stay and serve, just to follow Him & hear His direction. Now, for sometime now God has been building a ministry calling within me in addition to were He has me now. He has given me a great passion for worship leadership, & I adore preparing His church to approach His throne in worship. But, He has also been speaking a ministry of encouragement to ministry wives (and women in ministry) to my heart. My pastor hubby has been diligent in asking me what my hold-up is. Why haven’t I just stared DOING it? My answer has always been, I don’t feel prepared & most of all I don’t feel confident enough in myself to speak to these women. Fear ladies, it’s all fear. And we know who is the author of that fear!


When Christ is the Supreme Romance of our lives, we can do ANYTHING!!!  Even face/conquer our fears!!!  Praise Jesus!!

Thank you Mrs. Beth (if by some miracle chance you read this) for calling me out! “Zero confidence in the flesh! 100% confidence in the Holy Spirit!”  Thank you for helping me realize that I can be Audacious! I am a mighty woman of God because Christ lives in me! Because Christ lives in me I can do anything that God has called me to do, or speak, without fear!!

“I’ve got the guts to give Him the glory!”

Be blessed & be AUDACIOUS!


The Jedi’s Epic Adventure

As a mom, when the youth minister interrupts bible study asking for you, it’s never a good thing. This was me last week. Upon being told that my son had hurt his arm (and knowing how he usually acts when hurt) I expected to just be needed to provide comfort.

Enter the gym & immediately find the Jedi not crying, but sitting calmly & the adult looking after him mouths these words to me: “You need to go to the ER. It’s broken.”

Run. Gather stuff. Leave the youth minister to get my pastor hubby (which apparently was interesting, but not my tale), grab the Princess. & gingerly load the wounded Jedi into the van. All the while feeling every prayer being lifted.

The ER techs found the story of the injury quite epic. (First, let it be known that the Jedi was trying to minimize the pain of a broken wrist & fractured elbow. No tears over the pain.) Now, it must always be fun to ask a boy injured like this how it happened. Here is his reply to the question:

Well, there was a low basketball goal & a chair. 

Snickering came from techs and an “I like this story already!”

Apparently he had been jumping from the chair to the goal & either climbing the net to the hoop or grabbing the hoop and swinging. (All boy the Jedi is.) 

When the techs asked if he liked basketball, they guffawed when he replied no. They should have asked if he liked trying to be a ninja, that might have received at least a grin and nod.

Two days later (and while sedated in the surgery area) the wrist was set & the cast applied. 

For now, he’s learning to be a lefty & enjoying being waited on a bit.

I really am proud of my growing boy. Man, he’s getting so growny. I don’t think I’m ready! I love his compassionate heart. The only thing that truly upset him through it all was interrupting everyone’s bible studies. Bless him! ❤️ 

Trying to make his experience as epic as possible! 

Be blessed!


Why We Celebrate

Because on this day, many seem to have forgotten why we celebrate.  This.  This is why.

The Declaration of Independence: A Transcription

IN CONGRESS, July 4, 1776.

The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America,

When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature’s God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.–That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, –That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.–Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.

He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.
He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.
He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.
He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.
He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions on the rights of the people.
He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected; whereby the Legislative powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the mean time exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.
He has endeavoured to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migrations hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.
He has obstructed the Administration of Justice, by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary powers.
He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone, for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment of their salaries.
He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harrass our people, and eat out their substance.
He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislatures.
He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil power.
He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their Acts of pretended Legislation:
For Quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:
For protecting them, by a mock Trial, from punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:
For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:
For imposing Taxes on us without our Consent:
For depriving us in many cases, of the benefits of Trial by Jury:
For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offences
For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighbouring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies:
For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws, and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Governments:
For suspending our own Legislatures, and declaring themselves invested with power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.
He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.
He has plundered our seas, ravaged our Coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.
He is at this time transporting large Armies of foreign Mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolation and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.
He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.
He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavoured to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages, whose known rule of warfare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions.

In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people.

Nor have We been wanting in attentions to our Brittish brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which, would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.

We, therefore, the Representatives of the united States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name, and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States; that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor.


Be blessed!